The way is so long that I doubt I am able to walk through

I am wasting time here. In the past 20 days, I did every thing except study, just like a slacker. Of course, I know what should I do: values of hard work, self-sacrifice, and determination. But I feel I can not restrained myself.

From Hegel's view: frailty is not a behavior of rationalist. In the next 4 months, I have to restrained myself.